Once Brian was moved to the stepdown unit, Kate had less problems with him. His family was allowed to have one person stay with him all the time.  With someone there, he wasn’t able to misbehave like he had been doing in the CVICU.  As a result, she got to know Brian and his family a little better.  He was much more like the man she had had a crush on for the past few years. She still caught him watching her and he occasionally said things that were innocent on the surface, but the look on his face gave him away…at least to her.

She ended up discharging him home 2 days later.  She never thought she’d be so relieved to see a patient go home.  Even the hateful ones weren’t as bothersome as he was.  What puzzled her the most was that she wasn’t able to seriously want him to back off.  Sure she didn’t want her professionalism compromised, but she was unbelievably attracted to him.  She knew that if they had been in any other situation besides nurse and patient, she’d have enjoyed every time he touched her.

3 weeks later, Kate got an invitation in the mail. The Backstreet Boys were throwing a little party to celebrate Brian being well enough to go back out on tour.  There was a personal note from Brian asking her to come so he could apologize to her for his behavior.  There was a phone number for RSVPs.  Kate was excited.  The other Backstreet Boys would be there and she could meet the whole group.  And she couldn’t not go see Brian.  There was something about him that she couldn’t ignore.

The next day, when she called the number on the invitation to RSVP, Brian answered the phone.  She was kind of shocked that they would put his phone number on the invitation.  He explained that he had sent her invitation himself and that he was thrilled to find out that she was coming to his party.  He didn’t comment on how glad he was to now have her phone number.  Her address had been a post office box, but he was still determined to find out where she lived.

Brian wasn’t sure why he couldn’t stop thinking about her.  Kate was in every dream he had.  Leighanne wasn’t going to be at this party his parents were throwing. She didn’t think he needed to go back to touring so soon.  He would have time to get Kate alone and see what happened.

The party was in 2 weeks and Brian called Kate twice in the 10 days between her RSVP and the party. Once to thank her for coming and once to make sure she knew that it was a very casual party.  It was summertime and a t shirt and shorts would be fine.  The party was mostly family and a few close friends.

Kate couldn’t help but be excited.  If nothing else, she was going to get to see her crush again.  And this time he wouldn’t be recovering from open heart surgery.  She wore a tank top and shorts to the party.  She hadn’t known that Leighanne wouldn’t be there.  Brian was pretty much a perfect gentleman the whole afternoon.  She was a little reluctant when he asked her to stay until everyone else left so he could talk to her alone.

Once they were alone, he sat down and indicated for her to sit as well.  She looked at him sitting there on the sofa.  He had recovered nicely after his surgery. His blue eyes were impossible to say no to. She sat on the far end of the sofa trying to keep her distance from him.  “I know I didn’t behave like I should have when you were taking care of  me at the hospital,” he started. She was shocked. She never expected him to apologize, but that was what he appeared to be doing. “Between seeing you looking at me when you gave me that bath, being attracted to you, and all the pain medication I was taking, my actions were a little uninhibited.  I didn’t mean to make you feel uncomfortable.”

“I’m not going to sit here and say it’s okay for you to behave the way you did, because it’s not okay.  But I’ve been a nurse long enough to know that people don’t always behave like themselves after heart surgery.  Especially not in the first few days.”

“So you are willing to forgive me and give me a second chance?”

“Of course I’ll forgive you.”  He was smiling at her and she couldn’t help but smile back.  “What do you mean by give you a second chance Brian?”

He moved closer to her on the sofa.  He still wasn’t right next to her, but he was within an arms reach of her.  “I want to be with you. I can’t stop thinking about you.  You’re my obsession Kate.”

She didn’t say anything for minute.  She couldn’t look at him and those blue eyes.  “I like you Brian.  I’ve had a crush on you for a long time now, but I don’t want to be involved with someone who’s never here . . . ”  she was explaining.

“I didn’t say I wanted to be involved with you,” he interrupted and she looked over at him.  “I want you. In my bed. Now. And for the rest of the night.”  He could tell by the look on her face that she was both shocked and interested.  “I’m not sure what happens tomorrow.”

“Brian, I’m not really the kind of girl who can just get in bed with someone.  I’ve done a lot of things, but sex outside of marriage isn’t on the list of things I’ve done.”

“So you’re a virgin?” he asked way more excitedly than he should have.

“Technically, yes,” she admitted.  “I’m 25 and I’m a virgin.”

“I really want to change that, if you’ll let me.”  He moved a little closer to her on the sofa. He leaned towards her and kissed her right cheek before moving his lips to her neck.  Before she realized what was happening, he had his right hand on the inside of her thigh and was inching it closer and closer to where he wanted it to be.  What surprised her was that she wanted his hand there too.  She unconsciously opened her legs just a fraction, but it was all the direction Brian needed.  In about half a second he had slid his hand inside her panties and slid his fingers inside her.  When she cried out, he covered her mouth with his and kissed her.  He could tell she wasn’t lying about her virginity.  But he had no intention of letting her leave his house with that virginity in tact.  He wasn’t sure why he had to have her, but he knew he did.

He used his fingers to bring her close to orgasm but stopped just short so she would still want more from him.  When he pulled his fingers out of her and stood up, she looked almost lost.  Exactly what he wanted.  He pulled her up off the sofa and led her to his bedroom.  She didn’t seem remotely reluctant now.  He pulled his shirt over his head and reached to pull hers off as well.  She was a little shy until she saw how much he liked the way she looked.  He had her bra off in seconds so he could see those breasts he had been dreaming of for weeks now.  He gently pushed her down on the bed on her back and took his time exploring her body.  When he pulled her shorts down, she got a little nervous.  He knew that pleasure overrode her nerves and quickly put his hands on her.  Once her nerves calmed a bit, he stood back up and pulled off his shorts as well.  He hadn’t worn any underwear and she was admiring him very much.  She wasn’t looking remotely virginal right now laying there on his bed with her hair all mussed and breathing so shallowly.  He went to pull a condom out of the bedside table and remembered that she was a virgin.  “Kate are you on the pill?” he asked as he lay down next to her.

“Yes, it helps keep the cramps from being so bad.”

“And when do you start your next pack of pills?”

She laughed. “If you must know, today is day 2 of the placebo pills. I should start the new pack on Sunday. Why?”

He moved on top of her and kissed her.  “Just want to know if there’s any chance you can get pregnant tonight.”  He slid his hand down between there bodies and started to massage her clit.  He loved the way her body was already responding to him.   “Sounds like there’s very little risk of you getting pregnant.  And since you are a virgin, I know you don’t have anything I need to worry about catching.” He kissed her again and then moved his lips to her neck.  She was moaning both because of his kisses and his touching.  “So, if you don’t mind, I’m going to go ahead and do this…” he said as he used his fingers to guide his shaft to her opening.  She tensed up a little.  She was already so tight that he wasn’t even sure he could get inside her.  He used his fingers again working inside her to make certain she was wet and a little stretched before rubbing his shaft against her opening and her clit.

Soon she  was moaning and writhing against him and he was starting to be able to literally inch his way inside her.  He started kissing her again and she wrapped her arms around him.  After a few minutes, even he was getting caught up in what they were doing and he fought to maintain control so that when she orgasmed, he could slide all the way inside her. He gave her a few minutes to recover from her orgasm and adjust to him being fully inside her.  Once she recovered, it was on.  He had created a monster and all she wanted was him.  She couldn’t get enough of him.  And he couldn’t get enough of her.

When she woke up the next morning, Brian was awake and looking at her.  She blushed remembering how she had begged him to keep fucking her.  But he had done just that.  She had no conscious memory of them ever stopping and falling asleep.  “I know I need to go, but can we do it one more time?” she heard herself asking.  And then he was kissing her and inside her all over again.

Later, she got up and got a shower.  While she was getting dressed, he showered.  She kissed him goodbye but stopped at the open door.  “I know you don’t want a relationship.  You have a girlfriend.  But last night, and this morning…I have to do that with you again.  Is there something we could work out so that we could have sex sometimes?”

Brian pushed the door shut and kissed her.  “We’d have to keep it a secret and lie to everyone.”  She nodded.  “But I can’t wait to fuck you again.”  To prove his point, he pulled her shorts down right there by the door and unzipped his jeans freeing his erection.  He picked her up and guided his penis into her and backed her against the door before pumping into her until they both had multiple orgasms and he knew Kate wouldn’t be able to walk later on in the day.  The thought that he, Brian, the good one, had fucked a woman senseless, just made him all manner of happy.  And judging by the smile on her face, Kate was happy about it too.

For the next 7 years, Brian and Kate had a sexual relationship that they kept completely secret from everyone.  Kate stayed single. Brian got married to Leighanne.  Kate was prepared for him to end things once he was married, but he didn’t.  If anything, he was more demanding than ever.  They had worked out codes for each other.  She had moved from Boston to be closer to his home & worked in Alpharetta, GA so that they could have better access to each other.  The hardest thing was when he was on tour.  There was always someone else around and they pretty much couldn’t see each other when he was on tour.

Kate had moved up in nursing.  She had left the CVICU and was in management at a community health center that provided primary care to indigent patients.  She was involved in many charities and fundraisers.  She was part of Alpharetta’s A-list for events.  At one point, Kate got an offer she couldn’t refuse.  She was offered a Director of Nursing position at a community health center in Boston. It was hard for her to leave her life in Georgia, but she knew it was for the best. What she had with Brian was great, but it wasn’t going anywhere.  She wasn’t even sure she wanted it to.  But she did know that she wanted more out of life than what she had in Georgia.  If she lived somewhere else, she might not see Brian as much, but she’d have time for a life that didn’t include him.

Kate quickly rebuilt her life in Boston.  Within six months, she was planning fundraisers and doing lots of public appearances speaking about the needs of the community.  She was even developing a side business as an event planner.  She had it down to an art.  It was at one of these events that she met the first man to make her heart race besides Brian Littrell.

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